PEELING BACK THE LAYERS.
#RealTalk : As we broke silence on Day 5 of Michael Stone's New Year's 5-day silent meditation retreat at Chapin Mill Retreat Centre in Upstate New York, a fellow practitioner said to me, "You look like you've got it all figured out. You were perfectly calm the whole time." I burst into laughter, and responded, "You should have seen my mind!".
So let me peel back the layers..........
I practice, because I most certainly do not have it all figured out.
Far from it.
I experience periods of great restlessness, agitation, and deep sadness.
Sometimes I put on a brave face when all I want to do is scream or run and hide.
I lose hope in humanity. In myself.
I forget to breathe.
I fall. Over and over again.
I indulge in narratives that are nothing short of delusion.
I don't have all the answers - and that scares me.
But, my practice brings me back.
Through embodied movement and quiet stillness, I see these states of mind for what they are. I see them arise and pass away. Then I get tangled in them again....and then I come back.
Peeling back the sheaths.
Holding space for the vulnerability.
Because the world needs me.
Needs all of us.
#meditation #mindfulness #movement